My Spiritual Journey and Witchcraft: Discovering Past Life as a "Witch"

Throughout my life, starting when I was just a little girl, I heard things like "you are a witch", "you must be some kind of witch" "what are you, a witch?"  These remarks sometimes came with a smile, other times with a scowl, but always after something that I had talked about actually happened and was observed by another. 


Having been called a witch enough times when I was still so little, I wanted to know what being a "witch" meant.  Certainly I knew that I was not practicing witchcraft ~ i.e., I was not then actively and consciously engaged in casting spells and following any of the Wiccan rituals I had later read about.  But, was it possible that I was practicing witchcraft on some subliminal level?


Once I started reading all about witches, sorcery, magic (magick), paganism and the occult, I was fascinated and something about the entire subject really resonated with me.  That was actually not a surprise because I was always keenly interested in herbs, oils, gems, crystals, the stars, the elements, correspondences and so forth.  But, did this mean that I was "witch" or a "Wiccan"?


This led to a period of intense experimentation with spells, rites and rituals that I had read about or that I devised myself.  What I learned was that all of this came very naturally to me.  What I also realized was that I had some sort of innate talent in these matters.  And, finally, what I discovered is that magic (magick) was a very powerful "tool".  


Hence, about 35 years ago, I concluded that I had some sort of a connection to all of this, but it was not until about 25 years ago that I discovered a past life that provided the explanation.


The discovery came to me during my extensive travels throughout Europe.  In visiting certain old castles, cathedrals, churches and ruins, I sometimes felt a great deal of discomfort.  Other times, my body seemed to fill with the kind of warmth, joy and profound feelings of familiarity that one feels when returning home.  And, then there were those times, that these visits resulted in sudden and unexpected violent physical reactions ~ as was the case when I came into close proximity of antique instruments of torture. 


It was at this time that I began to have some very strange dreams and that a copy of the Malleus Maleficarum (also known as the "Witch Hammer" or the "Witch Hunter's Bible"), the infamous treatise on witchcraft written in 1486, somehow practically landed in my lap.  As I began to read it, I began to have terrifying nightmares ~ often waking in the middle of the night in a sweat and state of confusion.


After months of suffering through extreme physical and emotional discomfort, it suddenly dawned on me:  I had lived during the Burning Times and been accused of witchcraft in a previous life.  But, did this mean I was a "witch" then?  No, I was a healer or had something (like property) that someone else wanted ~ like most of those accused.


Am I a "witch" now?  I do not readily accept that label with all of its negative connotations but will attempt to answer that question in another post.  For now, I say that I simply have a heightened sensitivity to nature, certain energies and other things "unseen" in this dimension and, consequently, I am able to work with these energies more effectively than incarnates who lack this sensitivity.


I have provided a link to the Malleus Maleficarum but I must warn you that it is a very difficult read ~ particularly for a sensitive, spiritual or intuitive soul. 


In Love & Light,
Angelika

My Spiritual Journey - Part II (of Names and Numbers)

"Sedona Sky Spirit" by Angelika



I cannot pinpoint exactly when my spiritual journey began in earnest, but I have a strong suspicion that I have been on the Path from the very time I came into body, as the circumstances of my birth are somewhat strange.

My Mother states that one evening she felt that it was time, so she packed a small overnight bag and took the last nightly tram to the hospital.  Upon arrival, she was assigned to a bed and told to rest, as she would need her strength.  At some point, she fell asleep and the next thing she knew, she was awoken by the nurse and told that she had had a baby girl.  This may sound quite remarkable, but even the head of obstetrics had apparently commented that they never seen a birth quite like that.  My Mother tells the story laughingly, although it is quite evident that she is slightly embarassed for essentially not being present for the birth of her first (and only) child.

According to my Mother, also noteworthy was that I was very pale ~ nearly translucent.  Upon seeing me for the first time, my Mother's sister gave me my name ~ a Slavic name meaning "illumination" or "light".   The word "light" has the master number 11 (29/11).  Interestingly, my full name at birth also has the master number 11 (47/11). 

In esoteric numerology, and in very simple terms, persons who incarnate under the number 11 are thought to be "old souls" whose purpose is to find the Light and share it with others.   Hence, my spiritual path and soul's purpose was dictated at birth.  So in a sense, the journey began at birth.  However, I believe I was not fully conscious of my soul's purpose until I started my search to uncover why I always felt so different.

As a note, the name "Angelika" came to me from my Spirit Guide during the Indigo/Crystal transition.  It has encoded within it the Slavic name given to me at birth and means "messenger" (from the Greek "Angeliki" or "Angelos").

I will discuss the significance of names, including adopted names, within the context of numerology in great detail in future posts.

In Love & Light,
Angelika